Misscariage

Well this is a post on some of the feeling's I had...



last night I got a call from my sister letting me know her sister in law's baby no longer has a heart beat and to be honest, I wanted to cry because it brought back my own feeling's and even though now , I am six months preggies and sometimes wonder how on earth I would cope with two. I am sure I will get my strength from the one above.



When I went to the Doctor the first time and he told me that I would probably miscarry I was devestated and all I could do was cry. It was tough but in all that there was an uncertainty what if the scan was wrong what if it was just to soon to tell.So I was hopeful that all would work out ok.

Soon after seeing the doctor and him preparing me for the worst.... I started having cramps and the spotting increased and I told Colin that I believe I am having a miscarriage. I could see by the look on his face that he was upset but tried to be strong and said dont worry there is nothing you can do about it.I would not take any medication as I was concerned about what if I do not misccarry.



When I went to the doctor and he told me that I did indeed have a misscarriage and that I would have to come back to make sure it had all cleared naturally or I would have to have an D & C which I was not keen on. What happens if my baby was still fine and that there had been a mistake. So I made the discion to let it pass naturally and hoped it would do so fairly quickly.

I went back to the gynaecologist a month later and all had cleared naturally but emotionlly I broke down at work the one day. I could not talk to anyone I just had to get out of there. I spent a few days at home mourning the loss of my precious baby.

I told Colin that was it that I could not go through that pain again and that I would rather just be happy with my gorgeous boy. In time I changed my mind and am so happy about that.

I felt as though God gave me the strength to deal the pain and all of the mixed emotions one has.

Daddy felt Bubs move

Bubs

31 October 2009

Colin and I were sitting on the couch when Bubs started making some movements in my tum tum.Daddy finally got to feel him move for the first time. What special little moments.

New Words

New Words

November 2009

Thank you
towel
please
dow - meaning down
door

Week end

Week End
30~01 November

What we got up to this week end.

Daniel got bitten on his ear. Thankfully it was not too deep and did not need any medical attention.

The tenant at my Southfield flat has moved out …. He did not give two months notice and I am frantically trying to get another tenant. I had two viewings for Friday but they did not show up. URGH…..

Saturday I had to find a present for a friend of ours and while we were at the shops Nols (My Cousin) phoned to let us know that Colin’s parents were involved in an accident. . Daniel started throwing a tantrum so Colin took him out the shop so I could have some peace while shopping. When I arrived at the car my other cousin Shannon had called and asked if she could come over for a while before we head out again. So Colin went to pick her up and I put Daniel down for his afternoon nap. So sadly her son and Daniel never got to play together.

We made a mad dash to drop them at home, the kids enjoyed eating chips along the way… and we eventually arrived at the picnic.That was quite chilled after the morning of rushing around....

We popped in at Colin’s folks to see how they were doing, they are fine but the car is badly damaged in the front. We stayed to watch the Rugby. It was a very busy day for the little chap.

Sunday we went to church and on our way there Daniel had a tantrum of note he grabbed my glasses and bent them….. I was not very impressed with the little dude. He had a nice long sleep that afternoon. And was a happy chap after that.

That is pretty much what we got up to this week end.